A LONE BATTLE AGAINST WAR...Ipsitaa Panigrahi

WRITER-ACTIVIST BINALAKSHMI NEPRAM HAS NOT ONLY GIVEN WOMEN SURVIVORS OF GUN-VIOLENCE A NEW LEASE OF LIFE, BUT ALSO A NEW REASON TO FIGHT.......

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It was Christmas Eve, the year was 2004.  I still vividly remember the events of that day.  The tragedy that befell the Wabgai Lamkhai village of Thoubal district in Manipur left a deep and lasting impression on my mind.  I was witness to the coldblooded killing of 27-year-old Buddhi Moirangthem.  Three gunmen dragged Buddhi from his car-battery workshop, and just shot him.  The entire incident took place within a span of few minutes.  Nobody knew why, who and what led the gunment to kill Buddhi; even his visibly-shaken wife Rebika Akram was clueless.

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Northeast India has been facing the onslaught of ethnic-based armed conflict since the late 1940s.  In fact, Rebika is not the only victim of this ethnic-based violence, the lives of thousands of women have been cut short because of the gun killings of their beloved husbands, fathers or sons, be it by state, non-state actors or unidentified gunmen.

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During my formative years, I thought all this was quite normal.  But witnessing it at such a close range, shook me hard and led me to form the Manipuri Women Gun Survivor Network (MWGSN).  The formal launch of the Network took place on April 29, 2007, in Manipur's state capital Imphal.

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I guess I was born to do something like this.  I remember my father telling me that the day I was born, there was curfew in Imphal.  I now joke about it with my friends, saying that even an Army curfew could not stop me from coming out into this world.

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I grew up in the quaint little locality called Heirangoithong.  The Northeast is home to more than 70 major population groups and sub-groups, speaking approximately 400 languages and dialects.  Insurgency has for long engulfed this strategic region and has held development to ransom.  No other region of India, South Asia or the world must have seen such a proliferation and mushrooming of militant outfits and this region has.

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But it was only when I cam to New Delhi that I realise the enormity of the situation.  I then stumbled upon a UN document that was published in 1997 titled "Trafficking in Small Arms and Sensitive Technologies".  That document combined with a white paper on small arms written by the Canadian government inspired to research the origins of armed conflict and arms proliferation in my society.

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I conducted research for over two years and in 2002 published my research findings as a book titled South Asia's Fractured Frontier (New Delhi, Mittal Publications, 2002).  I found that 57 types of small arms had been identified, which have flooded Northeast India in the past few years.  The weapons came from China, Pakistan, Belgium, Thailand, Russia, the United States of America, the United Kingdom, Czechoslovakia, Afganistan, Bangladesh, Cambodia, Burma and of late, Israel.  The effect of this small arms proliferation has been alarming.  Various young people have taken up the path of gun violence resulting in death, decay and destruction in various fields - Socially, politically and economically.  Every year 3,00,000 people are killed because of small arms.

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MWGSN attempts to lift women from the trauma.  It helps women survivors of gun violence find ways to heal the scars that decades of living under the shadow of guns has caused to the community.  It is the first initiative of its kind in India.  MWGSN assists women in small-scale entrepreneurial work.

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I owe it to my parents and the Manipuri society for what I am now.  I was born in Manipur's soil and despite the difficulties, my parents struggled to raise my siblings and me to do our best for the society.

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I am presently working as secretary-general of India's first civil society organisation working on conventional disarmament called Control Arms Foundation of India.  However, no achievement is enough till peace and development comes to Manipur and its neighbouring states.

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It pains me to see so much conflict, infighting and bloodshed.  I firmly believe that the youth of Manipur and the Northeast region can change the destiny of our region.  Each one of us can contribute in our own little way and to do that, I believe in working with women and the outh.  I spend time in our khungangs (locality) and far off villages to see in what ways we can all work together to help bring about a positive change.  This is true even when I am abroad, say in London or New York, where I keep meeting several Manipuris who live and work there.

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I firmly believe that youth and women have a powerful role to play in bringing about a world that is free from conflict.  Through my research, writing and committed work, I live my dreams of striving for a world that is free from hunger, want and war...  (as told to IPSITAA PANIGRAHI)

VOW TO CHERISH AND LOVE MYSELF BEYOND ANYTHING.. Mani Shankar

Inspire myself with myself.  Not with hollow words or empty gazes into vacant spaces but with the silent energy of my vital being.  I am my only true friend and companion.  I am both - the alpha and omega - the beginning and end of me.  I know that when I am gone, this Universe I see and know shall have gone with me, yet I recklessly throw away each day without inspiring myself.  Every day when I wake up, I look seemingly whole, but get broken into pieces as the day progresses.  By night, I am torn and fragmented.  All day I don so many masks before the many masks of others, become so many people to so many people, I sometimes don't know who I am anymore.  Enough.  From this day I shall not tear myself out of fear or anger, or if I do, I shall patiently re-join the fragments with love until I am whole again.

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I shall cherish my family, honour my friends and I shall enjoy this world, but above all, I shall love myself deeply.  I shall love the spirit of life that flows out of my body, the deep intelligence that created me, pumped this heart to feel the gladness pouring out of my being.

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No. girlfriend or boyfriend, lover, husband wife, father, mother, daughter or son, no books, no website, no text messages, no news, no TV channels or columns of newspapers can ever know me as much as I know myself.  They are my links to the world, but they also sometimes hook me with the bright bait of desire, they make me salivate to wants that are not my wants, make me a slave to passions that never rose from my heart in the first place.  This is the primary seed of confusion, the main cause of agony.  All these desires that are not my desires, these goals that are not my goals - and this madness that arises from the fear that I will never live up to the world's expectation of me.
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I abandon the expectations of this world.  I shall only live to fulfill the passions that pour out of my own heart, utter words that speak through my own voice and realise desires that bear the true signature of my being.
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I inspire myself with the rhythms of my own heart.  I shall listen to what it tries to tell me in its soft beats, ask questions and wait till I hear replies in signs, songs and clues, till I feel gently awakened to the desires that flow in the deep rivers of my being.  I shall follow the song of my heart from this day.  I shall only do what inspires me, what motivates me, what makes me deeply happy - for that is the only way I shall be true to myself and this world.
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The future is never a mystery to those who care to see it clearly infold in their hearts.  I will see myself not only as who I am, but also always as who I want to be.
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I inspire myself with myself.  Heart with mind.  Action with passion.  And above all, life with love deep enduring love that is the silent energy of my vital being.
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FROM THIS DAY I SHALL NOT TEAR MYSELF OUT OF FEAR AND ANGER, OR IF I DO, I SHALL RE-JOIN THE FRAGMENTS WITH LOVE UNTIL I AM WHOLE AGAIN......

Get Out Of The Rut Of Materialistic Greed .... Queenie-tessential

Roti, Kapda Aur Makaan: the three necessities of life that we take for granted.  In fact, not only do we assume they will always be there, but we take them to a new level, where they no longer are a necessity, but a luxury.  What happens when it is taken away from your?  When you don't know where you will sleep tonight or where your next meal will come from, or if your are left with one pair of clothes to survive?  Ever thought of that?

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Rohit (Timmy) Narang challenged himself by doing a TV challenged himself by doing a TV programme where he would have none of the above.  Timmy runs Ambassador Sky Catering, where they provide thousands of meals per day.  Ironically, he was chasing a grain of rice not knowing when and where he would get his next meal.  "We seed food on plates being wasted.  None of us blink at it.  We go to fancy restaurants and pay dollars for gourmet food.  Imagine if you don't know when and how you will find a morsel of food," he said, narrating his recent experience.  "Your attitude in life changes.  Your behavior towards people change.  You are in survivor mode, and all you care about it how will you feed yourself."

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We sleep on comfortable beds in our air-conditioned rooms.  We aspire for bigger homes and furniture that spell luxury.  Even pillows today have their own hierarchy.  "What if you really don't know where you will rest your tired body?"  Timmy asked.  The world of luxury has hit us like a hurricane.  Clothes have to be stylish and branded, otherwise they are not up to the mark.  "I probably have clothes that are lying for years in my closet with tags still on them," he laughed.  "The funny thing is the more we have, the more we think about it and the more complicated our lives become."

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The experience has changed Timmy completely.  "I now worry about my driver's meal times," he said, referring to how many times we overlook the fact that those who work for us may not have eaten till late in the day.

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"We have way more than we need.  If we really reflect on our lives, we need so much less than we have.  Life is so much simpler and better when you are out of this rut."

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"But you knew the experience would be temporary?"  I asked him.  He paused and answered, "Yes, it was temporary, but when someone like me, who has been a stickler for nutrition and good food which I have every few hours, gets none... all this become a reality," he said.

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"My friends mocked me when I planned on going for this," he reminisced.  "Today, I feel a strength within me that is powerful.  I know I can live without materialistic greed," he said to me convincingly.

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"It's time to reflect," he said, "To give back to people who don't have all this.  Not with money, but real food, clothes and shelter.  Unfortunately money sometimes does not reach them," he said.  "We have much more than we need.  We have to prioritise and it's time for me to make people who don't have 'roti, kapda nor makaan' feel better," he said, with a positive spirit.........

Makings Of A Great Hero.... MANI SHANKAR

I get up every morning and tell myself I want to enjoy life at office today.  But I end up preoccupied, nervous or just plain sad.  At night, I look back and realise that I failed once again.  Tell me how to enjoy life.  Make it a short answer, something I can hold in my heart.............. -- Divya, Age 26

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Swami Vivekananda once famously said, "This world can only be enjoyed by Heroes."  Nobody said it better.  So, if you want to enjoy your life, be a Hero.  That's your short answer.  Hold that in your heart everyday.

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Now, for the long explanation.  For starters, "Hero" isn't gender specific.  It doesn't mean a male matinee idol.  It doesn't mean a sports sensation or a rock star.  It doesn't mean the celebrities, the champions or the men we sometimes wished we were.  A hero is none of them.  Hero is actually a state of mind.  It's your response to the world - your reflection of your inner-self.

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How do you become a hero?  To begin with, be on good terms with all persons, with the world, with the situation you find yourself in right now.  A hero never rages against reality.  She accepts her reality even as she moves to change it.  Anger isn't her favorite emotion.  She is calm, in the face of adversity, has the strength to smile when others feel the need to cry.

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A hero never compares herself to others.  She knows that there will always be someone better, fairer, sexier, smarter, richer, more successful than herself.  She has the courage to feel good about anyone who is in that list, and has the strength not to let them shake her aim or goal.

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A hero is interested in her own career, however humble it may seem.  She knows the world has a way of putting down everyone.  She will learn to ignore the world and pursue whatever she does till she does it fantastically well, for she knows that is the gateway to future success.

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A hero is always looking for virtues in others.  Even though she knows there are more frauds than good people, she is never hesitant to seek and praise goodness, greatness or any other virtue in anyone.  She can do that because she is confident of herself.  Her foundations are rock solid within, and this liberates her.  She is nobody's fool.  When she cuts someone down, it is with minimum force - done with poise and grace.

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A hero is gentle on herself.  She knows how precious her life is, how beautiful all life is.  She knows she is a visitor to this planet, here on a short holiday, and it's important to have fun in every moment.  So nothing really needs to be taken very seriously.

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She is smart enough to know that if she doesn't live her present moment in happiness, she isn't likely to live the future moment either. 

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So look at yourself every morning, Divya, look at the inner self, look at the true your, till a radiant smile spreads across your face.  You know you are a hero.  You will live today like a hero.

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Nothing and nobody will come in your way, for you hold the keys to your life, and your happiness is solely in your hands.  Now go ahead and have a truly great day....